Eva Zoubkova
Somehow I always suspected there might be some God somewhere. However it never occurred to me that I should try to look for him. I was seventeen and I was hurting because of a broken relationship with my boyfriend. I was certain we had to get back to each other. It was because of him that I lost my best girlfriend, my hobbies and a quality relationship with my Mom. I was used to him and I was used to sex. All of the sudden I was left alone. At that time my Mom started bringing unusual „spiritual“ ideas from someone at her place of work. I grew interested. The co-worker introduced us to New Age ideas. I believed every word he said. He talked about Jesus and God in the way of some energy or „love“. It took us couple of months before we learnt from Bible-believing people that God is a person, that Jesus is the Son of God and that we were wrong. We were told that it was dangerous to try to control some spiritual energy for one’s benefit. I started reading Bible and pray to Jesus. One day God did a miracle and spoke to my heart in such a Fatherly way that my desire to get my ex-boyfriend back disappeared at once. All of the sudden I felt presence of a loving Father, living God. My life did not become easy at once. I experienced rejection from my friends but on the other hand I found new friends, peace and joy of God. But the greatest struggle was with sex. I could not help myself; I had sex with any boy available. I failed over and over again. I was afraid of pregnancy – almost every month. One day I made my decision to spend time with God and His Word until He sets me free. I cried to God to deliver me from lust. In the night I was reading my Bible and I opened it on a certain place. I left the room for a moment and when I came back my Bible was opened on a different place. I knew there was nobody around who could enter the room and I checked the window - it was closed. The first line on the opened page stated „on the tenth day of that month“– that day was the 10th and it was 11.30 p.m. I was set free from lust on that day. God gave me freedom to say NO to wrong things. God is faithful and He never forsakes us when we need help. Since then sure enough I had struggles and fights but also victories and healings. Most of all I was made sure all over again that there is one great God that loved me so much that He gave the most precious gift He had – His only Son Jesus. I removed my mask and was free to be me – the way I am and the way God loves me. I am not perfect but God receives me anyway. I pray that you know Jesus personally as your friend, helper and Lord.
Somehow I always suspected there might be some God somewhere. However it never occurred to me that I should try to look for him. I was seventeen and I was hurting because of a broken relationship with my boyfriend. I was certain we had to get back to each other. It was because of him that I lost my best girlfriend, my hobbies and a quality relationship with my Mom. I was used to him and I was used to sex. All of the sudden I was left alone. At that time my Mom started bringing unusual „spiritual“ ideas from someone at her place of work. I grew interested. The co-worker introduced us to New Age ideas. I believed every word he said. He talked about Jesus and God in the way of some energy or „love“. It took us couple of months before we learnt from Bible-believing people that God is a person, that Jesus is the Son of God and that we were wrong. We were told that it was dangerous to try to control some spiritual energy for one’s benefit. I started reading Bible and pray to Jesus. One day God did a miracle and spoke to my heart in such a Fatherly way that my desire to get my ex-boyfriend back disappeared at once. All of the sudden I felt presence of a loving Father, living God. My life did not become easy at once. I experienced rejection from my friends but on the other hand I found new friends, peace and joy of God. But the greatest struggle was with sex. I could not help myself; I had sex with any boy available. I failed over and over again. I was afraid of pregnancy – almost every month. One day I made my decision to spend time with God and His Word until He sets me free. I cried to God to deliver me from lust. In the night I was reading my Bible and I opened it on a certain place. I left the room for a moment and when I came back my Bible was opened on a different place. I knew there was nobody around who could enter the room and I checked the window - it was closed. The first line on the opened page stated „on the tenth day of that month“– that day was the 10th and it was 11.30 p.m. I was set free from lust on that day. God gave me freedom to say NO to wrong things. God is faithful and He never forsakes us when we need help. Since then sure enough I had struggles and fights but also victories and healings. Most of all I was made sure all over again that there is one great God that loved me so much that He gave the most precious gift He had – His only Son Jesus. I removed my mask and was free to be me – the way I am and the way God loves me. I am not perfect but God receives me anyway. I pray that you know Jesus personally as your friend, helper and Lord.