From death to life!
My name is Lucka and I am 23 years old. I study at university a subject I am very interested in; I am favored among teachers; I am very amusing and wherever I enter I make friends very quickly and people admire me. You can come to me whenever you want. My shoulder is always here for you to cry on and my ear will listen to your worries and I am willing to help. I work in a hospice. I am really good in carrying for dying people; they call me: “little angel”, because I always have a good word, comforting them. I would say that they should nominate me for the Nobel prize. Recently I was with a woman until her last breath. She looked at me terrified and was trembling. I did not know what to say, so I told her that I was with her. However, I knew these words did not help her. She died with that terrified look in her face.
We go clubbing, drinking and smoking in the evenings; if someone brings ganja we may have a shot , I had also ecstasy- really good ride. Sure there will be some boys as well - for chatting and for longer relationships too (that is what we desire for, right). There is one young doctor in my surrounding, so let´s see.
Everything seems to be ok, so why am I crying in the night? Why am I crying even when I am in the crowd? It seems to me that I am alone. … Something is missing, I have everything and nothing.
My young doctor said that I was so good that I should become a Christian. So I am heading to a church…let them sprinkle me with water to become Christian…we will see. Before, I was also vegetarian and almost converted to Islam, so maybe now is the time for sprinkling and converting to another religion.
Leaving the church building I light my cigarette and thinking of going clubbing again. I will not become Mother Teresa here. Well, my boyfriend is happy. I became a believer. Now we are a happy couple… and our La Manche love story is collapsing, he is getting married… well not with me and I am collapsing. Heading to the first church, I am sure somebody must help me there. I am not going to see a priest; I know this is between me and that God, whom I don’t know yet. Well doesn’t matter: “God if you really exist, help me!”
I would say this was my first repentance in my life, I was crying a lot. Old lady sitting next to me must have been surprised. I guess, she has never seen so many tears in her life.
So I accomplished my first university degree and I was looking for another one. I was accepted for another two universities so let’s try them both... of course there is still no time for God, there is just a life theory, tests and exams.
Again I have met some Christians. This time they were asking me what will happen to me if I will die today. I know for sure (silly smiling)… I don’t want to even say that aloud that I am heading to hell. I would say 1:0 score for them, I know that if I will stand before Almighty God today, my comforting of sick people and other good deeds will not stand. This is not one of those easy exam I can pass by having a low-cut shirt and fancy walk.
I really have to think about it!
I am starting to read the Bible. I learn that it is not about some God, whom everybody believes in. I learn about who Jesus Christ is, and why they crucified him – for my sin. It is easy - Romans 6, 23 says: „For the wages of sin is death (and it seems that I am a sinner); BUT the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord”
I knew I had to ask God for forgiveness and take Him seriously; it is not enough to pour some water on me and shake a priest’s hand. God desires to have a relationship with me; relationship, which is not accepted by those, who don’t have it and are jealous about it.
Now I am 27. I have finished both universities; I have two jobs and recently, I was speaking at an international conference. My life has a purpose and I know where I go. And today if you ask me what will happen if I die, again, I will be l smiling, because now I know that I would go straight to heaven and that is why I am not afraid of death. I want to say this truth everywhere around me. You can call me fanatic; you can condemn me or reject me for that. However, this cannot change the truth that Jesus Christ waits for your decision as well. What will you do about that?
John 3:16-17 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved…that you can be saved.
Lucie Sedlackova